Sorry but this post is going to be a cryptic collection of quotes from my earlier posts. For documentation purposes.
Oh yeah I got my ski equipment. I guess it's something. It means that I actually managed to drag myself out of bed before the stores closed. Well okay it was only 30 minutes before the stores closed but still. I would call that development. But then again I'm not normal either.
~2nd January 2010
If anyone build a time machine I'd like to rewind and do everything again, mkay?
~4th January 2010
Oh yeah, I'm so screwed. I mean I have a week to study for physics county. I have been procrastinating for a month and now it's all collapsing on me.
~10th January 2010
I so completely hate myself right now.
I hate myself because... Well because I'm just such a FAIL!
Sorry for not keeping in touch everyone... I just really don't feel like talking anymore.
This is last winter all fucking over again.
~9th March 2010
That's what I get for giving up. Serves me right, really.
Can't wait for the flipping spring break. A little rest sounds real good right now.
~10th March 2010
Natalie Merchant - My skin
~25th March 2010
I'm not lonely.
And SecretZen isn't my home.
And I didn't spend my Jaanipäeva night watching Harry Potter movies and eating exessive amounts of candy. Alone. Till 3am
AND I AM HAPPY.
~25th June 2010
Just to make it perfectly clear to everyone: I love it here. I love it, I love it, I love it and I reallyreallyreally don't want to go back, kay?
No, I don't miss home and why should I? I hate it there, mkay?
~26th July 2010
I am amazed though that I survived New Years this year. I guess it's sort of a tradition to try and drown yourself in a glass of kids' champagne and hope to achieve some sort of happy state thanks to the sugar.
But hey, I haven't fallen into that great deep pit of darkness I was in last year around this time (or well in march but I'm hoping to steer clear of that this year). Yet.
~1st February 2011
I wish people would stop telling me I'm not good enough. I wish people would stop telling me I'm not fast enough, strong enough, smart enough...
~13th February 2011
Pink - Fucking perfect
~6th March 2011
~27th october 2011
So I'm pretty grinchy this season, which, given the fact that I've the coolest half a year yet, seems pretty stupid. It is but there's fuck all I can do about it.
~23rd December 2012
Shit hits the fan
Or youknow, the things that do happen I can't talk about here...
~17th January 2012
Well, there's school, obviously. And occasional lifeing. With long streaks of probably-depression.
~15th March 2012
I know it sounds all teenager-ly but I'm in pain right now. I just don't know what to do, I'm not even sure if I will publish this long, rambling speech. But I can't stop. Can't stop writing because I'm afraid of what I'll do to myself if my hands aren't kept busy otherwise. The sunny days haven't quite kept the darkness at bay.
~15th June 2012